I’ve had this burning in the pit of my stomach all week. Something different is in the air around me. When I walk outside I can smell it, it makes the hair on my arms stand on end. There is an awareness I’ve developed unknowingly and it hasn’t made me hate the world or want to move away from everything. Actually quite the opposite. I long for togetherness, community, family, growth. Walking coldly past my neighbor, bumping and pushing through the crowd at the grocery store, that isn’t life. The days, weeks and years fly by and before you know it, it’s time to go. I will not hesitate, I’ve seen too many idled by fear and I won’t. My life is short, I’ve seen death and despair, hunger, fraud, poverty, neglect, abuse, wealth, love and rage. I’ve been treated badly and I’ve played the villain. This life has grounded me and made me strong, I have not lost one ounce of myself and I will live without regret.
There are too many lost souls, chasing their own tails. Treating others badly because they have given in. Low self esteem with high standards, sky high dreams and no drive. The reality of what is needed to be happy in this world is very simple, yet it's been distorted and manipulated into an unattatinable, unreachable and unrealistic goal. I wish the world the best, I wish each person I have met complete happiness and success. I haven't set out to change the world, I just want to enjoy it.
